Can I still journal if I now have a blog? Or, was I blogging all along even though my place was called a journal? I'm not really sure. My writing has gone up, down, and sideways since I started posting online. I'd like to get back to journalling again though - maybe throw in blog-type entries from time to time. I think what I need to do is get back to writing every day and quit worrying so much about the pretties.
I've been reading books about writing. They actually have exercises to try at the end of the chapter but I've decided to wait and read through the books first, then go back and do the exercises. It's really silly to do it that way but I think it's fear that has held me back from doing the exercises. I want to know what the book is asking of me before I commit to writing.
I am a very private person in the "real world." I think some part of opening this up to family and friends has scared me away from being too deep. I fear I might discuss things in such a way that it will hurt people. It's never my intention. I'm just writing my perspective. I might even write something that is resolved but it's part of my past and I want to explore it or document it for further exploration. I might write something that shocks someone, or makes them angry with me. I hate being judged.
I guess what I'm saying is that you might find bits of me here again. Consider yourself forewarned.