Sunday, August 07, 2005

Tell Me Something Good

I feel like I am suffocating. Everywhere I turn there is bad news - lost love, lost lives, lost health and lost pets. I can't even escape it on T.V. Tonight I watched the show "Six Feet Under." It brought tears to my eyes several times. I was on the edge of the abyss and ready to take a nose dive into dispair. But, I wouldn't allow it to wash over me. I cussed death instead. I have no fear of death but it doesn't mean it doesn't suck. I hate saying goodbye. Even friends that we lose by the way side as we move and grow in different directions don't hurt nearly as much as those that we lose to death. There's some kind of comfort knowing that they are still out there somewhere. The loss isn't permanent. Death sucks only for those left behind and it sucks big time!

I really want to hear some good news. I mean jeeze I log on here and can't even get it! On the Welcome Screen it says that Peter Jennings has died, from lung cancer no less. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of bad news. I know there are good things happening in this world. Please someone tell me something good.

Okay, I'm done whining. Maybe I'm just feeling a bit edgy because I've begun weening myself off of cigarettes. I even feel guilty because I do want to be positive and because I feel like I am blessed because although all these bad things are swarming around me, they aren't happening to me directly, just people I care about. But, really I'd love to hear something positive, something good, anything. I thought I'd share the above from a book that I'm reading called "A Joseph Campbell Companion." I really liked the whole chapter that followed this but this snippet will have to suffice.


readmereadyou said...

I'm kinda feeling what you're feeling....Yes, Ms. Mary Poppins over here is feeling like crap. There is good news out there but the world seems to thrive on the negative. I guess it sells on TV......Just like when we see an accident on a street, everyone slows down to look. Maybe it's because we are glad fate didn't harm us.....Who knows. The good news, I guess, is that there is love in the world. We know this because we wouldn't feel so sad at the bad news if we weren't loving people.
With my love,

geminiwilder said...

telling you something good:

my son went mini-golfing today and scored a 58!  his uncle and cousin brought him, and treated !!  supper and ice cream followed the game as well!!!  that's good!

we are going to the beach today - the CT shore - my sister who's not been to the beach in 20 years and my niece (age 6) who's never been are going with us!!   that's hella good!!

you are doing yourself a wonderful thing by cutting down on cigs, and i know your quit date is coming up...4 more days...?  you must be /should be / really proud of yourself!!!  and that's very good!!!

there is always good out there.  let's keep finding it.  xo phin

lisaram1955 said...

I was very bummed, too, when I read about Peter Jennings.  But, y'know, the GOOD NEWS is that you are quitting smoking, and that should go a long ways toward making sure you don't suffer the same fate.  Keep the faith on that one...

Ummm...if you're looking for something uplifting, DON'T go read my latest "Coming to Terms..." entry...  LOL!  Lisa  :-]

babyshark28 said...

I'm too.
I want good news too...

Washington is having some beutiful weather!
how's that?

sistercdr said...

The good news is that you are a beautiful, sensitive woman who feels things deeply, is strong enough to set goals and work towards them and can brighten up the lives of other people.  These gifts though come with the price of experiencing the full range of emotion, and sometimes that hurts.  I'm sorry you're in the funk.  I really am

mosie1944 said...

It's good news that you are gradually getting rid of nicotine.  It's good news that it can be done; I know, because I quit smoking.  You are going to feel better, breathe better, and smell better once you've quit.  Isn't THAT good news?

J-land is good news, because of the way we can sit in the privacy of our own homes and connect instantly with caring people.

donah42 said...

Robbie, I've been feeling the same way... :(
The good news? Hopefully we'll get to see a pic of Albert in friar gear very soon...
We have a new little baby kitty who is fitting in perfectly with the family and is so cute he brightens up even the rottenest of days...Ummmmm...that's all I got right now :) Hang in there!

momandpato said...

Hi daughter, lets see, I won't have to bug you about BB6, I set up my DVR to tape all shows until the end of their season,quitting smoking sucks, I am down to 8-10 ciggs a day. The only problem, the Advair lets me feel so good and I can breathe, it will be harder. Like the saying we only go this way once so don't worry, be happy ! I love you............Momandpato

captgray2000 said...

Next time you have a negative thought say,"STOP" in your mind. It helps.
I have good news: After 11 months of living with friends I finally found an affordable apartment that is not a basement with water marks!LOL
Try listening to comedy or watching one. Ask your friends to tell you a joke or you tell one.
I smoked for 8 years, quit for 8, then moved in with a chimney which I couldn't resist and I started again. My son and I want to quit together. Perhaps you can buddy quit.

lisbnjvi said...

I don't watch the news or read the papers because I get the same way as you did, I get depressed and afraid of what this world is coming to.  Some good news:  I am finally feeling healthy and my entire family is healthy.  Hope this helps!
Hugs and love, Lisa
P.S.:  Whenever my 4 year old has me make a wish on a star/dandelion before she blows it/candle, I always say "I hope my family is healthy and happy" to which she replies "Not that one AGAIN!  How about a different one?".  LOL!

ginskia said...

Hi, not much going on here.  I tried to quit last night using the gum and hubby stressed me out this morning.  

It is sad about Peter Jennings.  I always liked him and he is a very nice man.  I want to read a biography about him one day.

I am going to email you on something else.


hunybea4him said...

good for you for trying to quit smoking.. I am almost ready too also  : P

GOOD NEWS! We bought our first new house! and are almost all moved in.  : )

Much Love,

alphawoman1 said...

I like it too.  And you know the good news....more money for fun things when the old cigarette money pit is a thing of the past.

indigosunmoon said...

I know how you feel.  So much sadness, and sickness these days.
It seems to be every where I look.
I missed Six Feet last night.  I hope it comes back on again.
I love that show...and am sad that it's ending.  I can't believe
they let Nate die.  What a sad thing.  
I said goodbye to my favorite show Queer As Folk last night.
<sigh>  I'm going to miss those characters something fierce.

txsguinan said...

Love the Cambell quote ~ 'You may not have a job, but you will have a life, and it will be interesting.'  Very wise.

And you, my friend, are having a life.  :)

goldenchildnc said...

Six Feet Under was one of my favorite shows. I'm gonna miss it. It really helps me reconnect with the human race. Tell you a secret: I cried too. :-)

It's good that you're getting these feelings off your chest.  It seems like crises come bundled together so when one strikes it feels like everything is unravelling around you. But the one thing you can count on is that all things pass. I hope you feel better.

judithheartsong said...

hang in there, it has been a tough time. It is all cyclical if we can just hold on. judi

robbush6 said...

Sounds like a case for Bilge Water Punch at Mumsy's. Yes, your brother is probably 2 hours from me on the Illinois side of the river. I drive fast. I can be there in less. Set it up.

oceanmrc said...

It's kind of wonderful, how we are universally affected by the same losses, real life or not.  I think I might need to pick that Campbell book up today.

ckays1967 said...

my last entry is good news....

Don't worry about the world coming to an end today, it is already tomorrow in Austraila.

Charles Schultz


deabvt said...

Beautiful, Robbie! Hang in there with the smokes!!

bonnybarnyard said...

Get a tattoo?
I don't have one but what the hell
Write something that inspires you on your leg and read it daily

oneobliviousone said...

I beleive that there is a universal vibe if you will. And with that if you out negitive energy out there then not only will you receive it back but so will everyone else out there! So for you , for me and for everyone one else out there stop thinking negitively and think positive. I don't mean that everything needs to be daisies but instead of thinking how crappy everything is you need to think " I'm a wonderful person that I love" and other things of the like. I know this is hard at first but once you start and you quash all the bad thoughts then you will only think in a positive way. It helps, really!!!!! and it's contagious!!!! Try it for at least an entire day and you will feel better.

Much love to all