Thursday, December 15, 2005

Time Whirl

It was six something when I left work. I ate a little something and talked on the phone when I got home. I look up and it's time for bed. Where did the night go?

It was Monday yesterday. It's Thursday now. Where did the week go?

It was January a couple of months ago. I know because that's when I bought my car. Just last month was July. I know because I took the trip to Seattle. My birthday is in five days. Oh wait. That was last month. Where did the year go?

I was 25 last year. So, how is it that I turned 38 this year. Where does the time go?

Some days, most days, all my days, seem to be spinning past me. I feel like one year is blurring into the next and pretty soon I'm going to wake up and realize I lost a year somewhere. Never to be found again.

I know journaling would help this dilemma, if only a little bit, at least it would give me some place to point to when I ask where the time went. But, sometimes, lately anyhow, it has felt like one more thing sucking my time away from me. However, what is all that time meant for anyhow but to live, to live in the moment is key. Writing, reflecting, journaling is part of the experience of life that I want to live. I think part of the problem is that I have so many competing interests that I'm always giving short shrift to several while I focus on others. Then I spin the merry-go-round and hop on at a new spot and watch the other interests spin on by, then stress about my neglect of them.

I read, or heard, somewhere once that time is relative. Summers seemed so long as a child. The twenty-four hours leading up to a trip to a place like Walt Disney World felt like a week. Wait five minutes? Counting to a hundred was hard enough while playing a game of tag. Time felt like it dragged so much because each component was such a huge portion of the life we had lived up to that point. Now, large portions of time are much smaller in proportion to the amount of time we have lived. I guess that means as I continue to watch time whirl past me I better get used to it and figure out how to stop stressing that I haven't enough time to do all the things I'd like to do. I guess I need to focus on gratitude for the things I was able to accomplish.

Looking at the clock, I see it's past my bedtime. I guess I'll continue robbing Paul to pay Peter, a little too.

On a quick different note: The picture is of a shark at the Aquarium of the Pacific. I'm not sure if it's one of the ones I got to touch but I did touch one. I also touched a Sting Ray, or was it a Man-o-War? Either way, it was way cool. I squealed like the girl I am, or was, whatever. Time - Hmmfh. It might be whirling by but I'm still a kid at heart.


Lisa :-] said...

The other day, I heard someone say that time is like a roll of toilet paper; the deeper you get into it, the faster it goes. Strange analogy, but very true.

You're only 38 and you're feeling like this...imagine what its like at the advanced age of 50!

V said...

Ah, Time!!
Robbie, it doesn`t get any better!

alh said...

i was thinking the same thing this week. the year is about done & i'm at a loss on what i did with my time between then & now.

IndigoSunMoon said...

Oh I ever know how you feel! It seems that once I turned 20 my life was on a rollercoaster, straight downhill!
Blamo! Now I'm 43!
Love ya,

ChasingMoksha said...

Don't even get me started, I am depressed at the very thought of losing time, and looking at young hot boys simply do not help it out one bit!


ckays1967 said...

I have a picture at my goal is to swim with one of them one of these days....

I have petted (ia that a real word?)one of them at Sea World or Wally World or Somebody's World but I want to swim with one on the Great Barrier Reef.

I know what you mean about time, just yesterday I swear I was playing Charlie's Angels and swimming all day. Honest.

I am 38 too.

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Unhinged said...

Great post, Robbie Girl. I think we can all relate to this. In fact, I'm surprised my head didn't fall off my neck from all the nodding I did.

Carly said...

Hey Robbie :)

Yes, I know the feeling well. It is just one more thing no one tells you when you are a quickly time goes by. Like Mary Englebreicht (spelling?) says..."Time Flies whether you are having fun or not!"

Judith HeartSong said...

time works like that for me as well.

Trish said...

Awww - beautifully wrapped up, kid at heart.

One thing that comes to mind - jumping on and off your merry-go-round. That too is living.

Now, what day is it?

gigi said...

What a coincidence ~ I too was 25 last year! As I will be for the next 15 years. I've said it before and I'll say it again; math is hard.

I SO hear you about journals being a time-sucker thing, and yet a viable form of creative expression and communication. And yet, there are so many other forms, calling out for our attention as well. I have to think ~ at the end of our lives, who will lament, "I should more time online?"

What we need, alas, is always the same; more time.

Merry Christmas!!! xxoo :)

gigi said...

um..."I should HAVE SPENT more time online..." is the line. I should have spent more time in edit.

I stand by 'Merry Christmas' though.

I'm going to bed now. Sheesh. ;)

Sharky said...

It's always fun to touch a shark...hahaha.

I just turned 38, myself. and am...not quite enjoying it, but not hating it either. It's just a different sort of journey, one of certain expections of joy and also trials of pain....for me anyway. life is interesting...and always spinning past us. yeah...yeah...

happy holidays!!!

Kathy said...

Stopping by to wish you a very Merry Christmas.


ckays1967 said...

Merry Christmas Robbie!!

gigi said...

HA! Just saw the new sidebar toon ~ love it!

Merry Christmas!

ckays1967 said...

And in just a few moments it is gonna be 2006 if you don't post somethin'.


aims said...

...I thought I posted a comment here before, when I read it. Guess not. I'll do so now. I was just checking in to say hi. Hope all is well.

Take care!

Sharky said...

you should be a journalist...really.

anyway, like the shark...last July you got to hug one! hahaha.
yes, time does pass quickly, sometimes...not quick enough. Just live your moments, do the things in which makes time slow a sunset at night and contemplate your day. focus on the blessings of your life before you close your eyes. stuff like that...
anyway, great entry...loved the way it ended. and we will always be girls at heart, even at 80. :)

Sharky said...

wow, I already commented here....too strange! I read your entry like I had never read it at all...

wierd, but not really too strange...I was very stressed Dec 24th...the day I commented....oh, well.

now. I have 3 comments.... :D

Judith HeartSong said...

I am thinking of you and hoping that all is well.

ckays1967 said...

Hoping that it is only the craziniess of EOY that is keeping you from posting.


gigi said...

Hey ~ I'm all for you embracing those other creative outlets and all, but you are required to check in once in a while. You never call, you never you realize I have undergone 3 profile picture changes since your last entry? ;D

Oh, just freaking post something already....

emmapeelDallas said...

OK, how pathetic is this? At 56, I've actually done a timeline of the major events of my life that I keep in a folder on my computer, and I've suggested to my ex that he do the same, as this impression of time speeding by only increases as the years go by.


alphawoman said...

You're a baby!!! Wait about twenty years and then wonder where the time went. I just read a quote about sitting on the sidelines of life...ain't gonna do it! Glad you posted...I did read the above one also....