My memory is not the greatest. But there are some things that are imprinted on your mind like they occurred just yesterday. I was 16 at the time and a senior in high school. We lived in Texas. Los Fresnos to be exact. Never heard of it? Neither had I until six months after I came back home to Pennsylvania did I find out that we were moving there. Actually, I thought we were moving to Harlingen but once we got down to the "Valley," they (my mom and husband # 4) bought a house in Los Fresnos and there we stayed, for a little while anyhow.
To make the move at the end of my junior year wasn't that big of a deal to me. It only meant the fourth school in one year's time. I was accustomed to making friends quickly. And the guys always like the new girl so my dating life was quite busy. There was one neighbor boy, John, who became a very good friend. I dated several of his friends. His cousin and I dated most of my senior year but we kept breaking up and getting back together. John and I even ended up dating for a while towards the end. But, I did him wrong because of his cousin. I was young and fickle then. I just wanted to have fun. These guys were gorgeous, the cream of the crop, football players, the guys all the girls wanted.
I know what you're thinking. My mom thought it too. Why did I get them? I must have been putting out. But, I didn't. I was too afraid. I didn't want to ruin my life by getting pregnant and abstinence was the only sure way I wouldn't. I wasn't fridged, I loved "making out." I tried with one guy to do a little something more to make him happy. Poor guy, I hadn't a clue. Never tried that again, until several years later. But, I never slept with any of them. I never even let them touch me down there for fear I would give in.
I'm not sure how the conversation came about. My mom and I were talking about abortion in the kitchen on Resaca Drive. I told her I believed in a woman's right to choose and she told me if I ever got pregnant I had better have the baby and give it to her to raise. I told her Hell No! I know the kind of mother you have been. Why would I ever allow you to raise my child? I said: Besides I don't mess around so there's nothing to worry about. Her reply: Oh please, with the kindof boys you date. I know you're not a virgin! -- Thanks mom! Thanks for the vote of confidence. Yup that's why they dated me because I was putting out.
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