A guy I work with came into my office Friday morning. With glee in his voice he states, "We've surrounded Fallujah."
With a look of scorn and astonishment on my face, I raised my head and replied, "I find it hard to find joy in the fact that people are about to die."
"People have to die so others can live," he mumbles as he turns quickly to leave.
Befuddled, I think: "WTF????"
He voted for Bush. All that is pure, good, and right with humanity is dieing so he can live.
I wrote the above Friday, right after the incident occurred. Please don't think that I wish Bush dead. That is not what I mean by the statement "so he can live." It's meant to be symbolic of what he represents, what his hidden agenda represents. What this election represents to me.
I am fearful of where Bush is leading this country. However, it goes beyond his foreign, domestic, and economic policies. I'm not even sure I can adequately express what it is that I fear. But, I'll try today and in the days that follow. But, I also want to try to write about other things. I need to get passed this.
I have been inconsolably depressed since the election. I've been trying to make sense why it has hit me so hard - why I feel so hopeless about the state of our nation.
If you look at the course of history, the conscience of humanity has been growing in what I believe to be a positive direction, in the direction of love. However, what slapped me in the face about this election is that we are currently in a regression. Or, maybe I've just deceived myself into thinking that we were progressing further than we actually have. I look at the map and see red, even in the state of California. There are only a few counties, the most populated, that voted for Kerry. I feel disconnected from people that I am surrounded by. It makes me feel hopeless. That's what the red means to me.
I know people who are Republican. I know people who voted for Bush, very few people. It's not the individual decisions that perplex me. I understand their reasoning and respect their decision. It's the collective conscience of the nation that hurts. Bush ran a campaign based on fear and deception. He's operated his presidency and garnered support by manipulating the emotions of our citizenry.
The fact that eleven states voted for an amendment to their state constitution to deny homosexuals the right to marry is emblematic of the lack of love and acceptance that we have for one another. I personally believe that Bush came forward right before the election stating that he wasn't against civil unions in order to get people out to vote. Because he knew that those who are opposed in those states where it was up for a vote would show up in droves to insure that it was passed, and those same people would vote for him.
I believe in freedom. I respect people's personal beliefs and I believe that in a truly free society differing views can coexist without impeding one another. After this election, I came to the realization that I am clearly in the minority.
Of all tyrannies, a tyranny sincerely exercised for the good of its victims may be the most oppressive. It would be better to live under robber barons than under omnipotent moral busybodies. The robber baron's cruelty may sometimes sleep, his cupidity may at some point be satiated; but those who torment us for our own good will torment us without end for they do so with the approval of their own conscience.
-- C. S. Lewis