Sunday, June 27, 2004

Just what the doctor ordered.

Forgive me journaling community for I have sinned. It has been a week since my last entry. I wouldn't have even posted this one tonight if Christina didn't call me out on the error of my ways. I have been in a funk for a month now. It just doesn't seem to be leaving. I am now popping St. John's Wart with the hope that my mood will be gone soon.

I am the proactive type. As such, I am trying to find the root of what is bothering me. Some of it, I think, is because I have been too wrapped up in what goes on here in J-land. I've felt like I spend too much time here instead of doing things in the real world. As such, I have been making a concerted effort not to log on as soon as I get home from work.  In addition, I told Kevin to accept no excuses and to force me to do something today. We decided to go to a museum.

And, not a moment too soon. After reading the Hippie Chick's journal this morning, I was seething mad. I'm still mad. But, I'll get over it. I had a great day with my GAY boyfriend Kevin. I went to a museum and saw beautiful works of art. I felt the wind blow through my hair and felt the sun on my face. I talked with my buddy and joked. It felt great!

After this, I am popping in the movie Amelie, that Slomo and Babyshark have raved about. I will not feel guilty that I am umpteen entries behind on answering comments, or that I have a cazillion journals that I am behind on reading. I won't beat myself up that another weekend has gone by and I didn't call friends and family that I've been meaning to connect with forever and that a list a mile long of chores still needs to be done. I will enjoy the rest of my Sunday and start afresh tomorrow.

27 comments:

sistercdr said...

As wonderful as journals are, our real lives should be better.  At least for me, real life gives me the stuff to blog about.  The key thing is to take care of yourself, make a point to do the things you enjoy, to listen to your body,  and to listen to the quiet inside of you until your funk passes. (And it will.)  If you don't get caught up on journals, so what?  If the chores don't get done for a day or two, so what?  These things will wait on you.  You wait on yourself.  Take care.

alphawoman1 said...

I have been thinking about all the time I spend reading, commenting, writing on AOl-J land and have developed the Displacement theory of blogging. It goes like this.....real life suffers.  When I lay in bed at night with a case of insomnia and begin to think about the journals.....?  Yet, I cannot and do not want to pull away.  I guess it really is a sort of an addiction.

dymphna103 said...

Robbie you were missed but all is understood as I did the same.  I have now been refreshed and ready to take the world on.  Anyhow take care.  Have a good week   john

lamove04 said...

struggling with simialr blogging addiction, Robbie, & it's only been 3 months for me!  Going out into the real world is good, and it is potential fodder for the journal too, as demonstrated by this entry of yours.  Jealous of your museum visit, I'd really like to see the Getty- read a lot about it when it first opened.  oh, btw, thanks for supplying the term fag-stag, I knew it was out there but couldn't remember it... :-)   Albert

ggal3133 said...

It's always fun to see what everyone in J-land is writing about but it's even better to get out and enjoy your Sunday. I'm glad you had a fun day and the musuem sounds wonderful.

donah42 said...

I'm good at pissing people off:) But please clarify that you are mad WITH me not mad AT me---wouldn't want to start any nasty rumors rolling around J-Land---LOL! Glad you got out and enjoyed the day---gay boyfriends are the best!!! :)

khay6809 said...

Glad you had a good day. Loved the photo, by the way. And I agree that this whole journal business can become overwhelming and even addictive. Right now I'm using it as my "diet" --- whenever I want a big bowl of ice cream with chocolate syrup on top, I write things in my journal instead. Of course ... after I finish writing I still eat the ice cream so I have a few kinks to work out :-)
Kelly

barebytes said...

It healthy to get away and into the real world once in awhile. Glad you had a great time and not sit and worry about why a funk is a funk and what is causing it. Sometimes it's best just to ignore a funk and move past it without looking back as to the whys and wheres of it. Life is short and it's good to get out and enjoy it. Just don't totally forget us cyber buddies too hehehe  Hugs Lanny

greenheart21469 said...

That's some scary stuff--don't blame you for being mad, Robbie.  One thing (among many) my dad taught us when we were growing up was to beware of CHRISTIANS.  Especially if they quote scripture.  Yikes.

mlraminiak said...

Don't apologize, Robbie...  You're just going through "the cycle."  And summertime is the perfect time to be out and about in the real world.  We'll be here whenever you want to come back for a visit!  Lisa  :-]

screaminremo303 said...

I'm glad to know your funk didn't keep you from snarfing at me via comments to my journal. :) The journal stuff is worse than Crack.
I don't have any gay boyfriends, but I know a couple Lt.'s that are kinda goofy - does that count?

deabvt said...

Love your Graphic!
V

karensull12 said...

I'm sorry that you are still in a funk.  I certainly understand the "getting caught up in j-land" thing.  Hope you're feeling better soon.

xzasporated1 said...

Good to hear you're putting yourself first.  All of us should make that a priority.  Lovely photos, by the way.

~~ Jennifer

lisbnjvi said...

Hi Robbie!  You get on with your "real" life and take a break from J-land.  It's okay to do that!  You seemed to have a great time today at the museum and you actually went outside!  WOW!  All kidding aside, I am glad you popped in to let us know how you were doing!  I missed reading your entries, but you take all the time you need in the "real" world because that's the one that matters!!!
Hugs and love, Lisa
P.S.:  Be careful with St. John's Wort, my docs claim that is how I got the disease I have even though there is no studies that actually prove that.

musenla said...

That's the Getty Museum you've been to, yes?  Wonderful museum, one of my favorites in the city because of its focus on antiquities.  A place of great memories for me as well, as it's one of the first places where D. and I went when we started dating.

Well, I think your mind, body and spirit is saying Robbie, we need some attention.  Engage in self pampering and whatever suits your fancy.  Most of us in J land have lagged at one time or another, life needs tending to after all.  We'll be here waiting for hopefully, an invigorated and sufficiently pampered you!  =P

plieck30 said...

You sure can get carried away with this addiction, but when you do get out it feels so good. It is always still here when you get back. Have some fun, get some sunshine and then come back. Paula

ondinemonet said...

Hi Robbie

             Like you I have felt in a funk of recent. I am not doing as many Blog Jogs as I should have, especially here. I call it summertime blues! Hang in there and take care...Always, carly :)

indigosunmoon said...

Robbie,
We all get in a funk sometimes.  Goddess knows I sure do!  This whole week in journal land has been absolutely crazy!  Bless Amy's heart.  Gotta love that hippie chick!  I'll be glad when the week ends, and a new top five list is chosen.  
Glad you got out and did something fun!  Gay boyfriends are the best!!!!  lol
Love ya!
Conzo

judithheartsong said...

So glad you had a good day at the museum..... :):):)smiles for you, judi

derossetfamily said...

I feel refreshed just reading this entry! So glad you went out and enjoyed yourself. Hope you liked Amelie, I know I did :)
~Mary

freeepeace said...

I hear ya sister!  Wayyyyy behind am I.  I couldn't finish Amelie.  I struggle with subtitles as it is...but they certainly don't go well with mono.  Hope you enjoyed it.  :)  Great collage up there!  ...off to see what made you seething mad.

slowmotionlife said...

Darlin', I think we're ALL in that funk. Seriously.. what the heck is it? And when is it going away?  Part of it, for me, is guilt.  I really do feel guilty about a lot of things lately - not keeping up, not doing enough, whining too much, whatever.  I think it's a good idea to just STOP that cycle and slow down a bit.  You're on the right track here and you're an inspiration.  

I'm glad you had fun at the museum, hon.  Did you like Amelie?

ckays1967 said...

oh Robbie....no guilt....no worries.....

I just missed you is all.   :P


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txsguinan said...

A girl after my own heart!  Nothing soothes a troubled soul like a visit to one of the temples of great art; it calms the beast within and never fails to re-center me.  I hope it did that for you.  And I absolutely adored 'Amelie!'   The saturated colors, the actors, the surrealist charm....delightful.

Why are we all in such a funk, anyway?  I feel, like you, that perhaps I am spending too much time in J-Land.  I've tried St. John's Wort; it gave me the belchies.  Have you tried Sam-E?  It seems to help a little ~ I'm on it NOW!  And I couldn't be HAPPIER!  DAMN IT!  :)

fancykat28 said...

Ive been reading your journal for quiet awhile now.  I enjoy you and your writing about your life.   I've grown to admire you.......a good woman with a kind heart.  Here is a link to my journal.  Hope you check it out sometime.  Thanx for sharing your life!!!  Chrissy

babyshark28 said...

yeah for you!  go ahead and take a break, and DON'T feel guilty about it. :p  and also yeah!  your watching Amelie. :)  I hope you like it.  take care you, I don't like you seething mad and depressed, geeesh.  But, such is life sometimes right.  if you need to talk, hey..I'm here. :)